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| Monday, February 19th, 2007 | | 7:04 pm |
I | Your Birthdate: October 30 | 
You have the type of personality that people either love or hate.
You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken.
And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted.
Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved.
Your strength: Your flair
Your weakness: If you think it, you say it
Your power color: Scarlet red
Your power symbol: Inverted triangle
Your power month: March |
| | Thursday, December 28th, 2006 | | 7:54 am |
Confusion
I'm probably the most confused at the moment than I've been in a long time. It's the worst kind of confusion: Boys. They're like buses. You don't see any for ages, and then when you do, they all come along at once! The first one, you're already know about, he's just kind of re-entered the scene in a new light; Luke. I don't know. I still don't think I actually like him, but he's a good distraction from the guy I think I might actually like. And I know, Kat, I really shouldn't, because he doesn't deserve me..! I know you're right, but I can't help it. Even though he's been a complete fuckwit, he's been an honest fuckwit. There's just something about him I can't get out of my head. Believe me, I want to and I've tried, but he's stuck in there. Why? When I know from the way he's behaved in the last couple of weeks that I deserve so much better than him. It's just ridiculous that you can't see what's best for you when it's so close to home. He's gone and buggared off over Christmas/New Year's, and won't be back until next Thursday. It's good. Out of sight, out of mind...hopefully! It's hard having to see him around the office, so his time away will be beneficial. I wish I didn't feel this way :-( Current Mood:  confused | | Friday, November 24th, 2006 | | 6:59 am |
What to wear....?
So, tonight I'm meeting Canberra dude. It's fine, everyone's going for dinner: my parents, his dad, my sister and husband, him, and (most importantly), ME! The question is this: what do I wear? I would not be having any issues on clothing if it were just him and I, but because parents are there, I have to be a bit more conservative. Everyone's been telling me I should wear a dress, but I don't think I want to... I think I'd be more comfortable in pants. Maybe white pants? My sister said to me "who wears white trousers?!? Teeny boppers!" But I quite like them, and teamed with a nice top, I think it has potential. Lemme know what you think! P.S. Luke is being a bit clingy for my liking... Current Mood: confused | | Thursday, November 16th, 2006 | | 5:27 pm |
Good managers are hard to find...
So, after kind of being a bit burnt by my manager at my previous job, I've been pleasantly surprised that my current manager hasn't, over time, turned into a bit of an asshole. A couple of weeks ago, I started having a mid-mid-life crisis about my career...I set up a time with my manager to discuss it, but it's been rescheduled about 5 times since. As such, I've been growing increasingly anxious, am not sure why, about talking to him about the fact that I'm not happy at work. As the meeting kept getting rescheduled, it just kept building up inside me, and I became uneasy and unsure of what his reaction would be. I had my meeting with him today. Dave is AWESOME. He completely understood where I was coming from and even apologised for things he/the company haven't done since I've started there, because they were overlooked. Then he discussed the next few months, which apparently, has already been discussed with the CFO. If the opportunities and future prospects aren't going to take me where I want to go, then he will help me find somewhere else or another way within the company. He was so cool about it, I feel so much better now, and so much more comfortable with things. It really is amazing how much talking actually helps! Current Mood:  relieved | | 6:59 am |
The Beauty of a Bag
Just a quick tribute to my new bag which I received yesterday in the mail (purchased from ebay): it is SOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL... | | 6:56 am |
1 problem down, 2 to go ;-)
So, the lunch... It was okay. But that's it. I know...let me explain what I think has happened: When Luke started liking me, sure I liked the fact he liked me (who wouldn't?!), but I didn't really like him in that way back. Hence, I said no when he asked me out over a year ago. Nonetheless, flirting is always fun, so that's the way we continued - flirting. Fast forward to a few weeks ago, and I see him for the first time in about 6 months. I was drunk. Herein lies the problem methinks. I find him a lot more attractive (both physically and mentally) when I'm slightly inebriated. So yesterday when I met him, he did absolutely nothing for me. I'm talking Zilch. Disappointing, I know, but at least it solves one of our issues. Current Mood:  coldCurrent Music: Evermore - Light Surrounding You | | Wednesday, November 15th, 2006 | | 7:10 am |
Lunches, Dinners, and everything inbetween....
So, today I'm having lunch with Luke. There's no misconceptions here. He's got a girlfriend. He's been flirting with me since before the beginning of time. We get along. All is fine - harmless flirting. Or is it? I know he likes me. The problem is not that. The problem is now, I think I might like him. Which brings me to my dilemma. Do I like him enough to talk to him about his girlfriend and the possibility of her becoming an ex (which I think he'd consider) when I can hardly trust him. Let's evaluate: he's been going out with this girl for over a year and has been trying it on with me the whole time. To be fair to him, he did ask me out before the now girlfriend appeared, but still. How can I trust him completely? Then there's the Canberra dude (have mentioned him before). I can't pinpoint my issue with him...well, actually he seems immature. Aside from this, he seems nice, but that's it. Nice is good and all, but I need something more...am I being overly picky? Lastly there's the friend. The friend that people have always joked about something going on between us. Previously, as far as I've been aware, it's been brushed off and disregarded. Saturday came around though, and more stuff was said. I don't know, I may be being completely paranoid or arrogant (or drunk!) but I'm sure I was getting some vibes from him...:-s This worries me. I don't like people planting seeds of ideas in people's heads. It just makes the whole thing awkward for me! Current Mood: confused | | Friday, October 27th, 2006 | | 9:08 am |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY K!
Love you lots and thinking about you on your most important day! Have a fabulous day and even better night ;-) Happy 25th! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: cheerful | | Monday, October 23rd, 2006 | | 12:25 am |
Update
Okay, so just a quick note: Contact with Canberra guy is looking positive. Seems like a nice guy, although am not sure he works hard enough! Saying that though, my Dad did point out today that I work harder than anyone he knows :-) bless him. He's developed this knack recently, of seeming to know the right things to say! Will let the work issue go with Canberra guy. Sleep time....zzz | | Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006 | | 7:47 am |
Canberra Dude
Alright, so I've been hearing about this guy in Canberra for MONTHS now...it's been getting somewhat tiresome. But more than that, it's made me intrigued, so now I actually want to meet him and know what he's like! He had apparently asked for my email address a couple of weeks ago, and so my dad gave it to his folks to give to him. What would one assume to be the next expected step? Yes, it's not rocket science: an email! But no, 2 weeks passed and I still had received no form of communication from the boy. I'm not going to lie to you, I was becoming less and less patient and tolerant. Yesterday, though, as I was about to leave work, I got an email. About bloody time, was all I could think! The problem, I feel, is that because he took SO LONG to send that first email after getting my addy, my expectations grew during this period, and he didn't actually end up saying all that much :-( It was okay, but nothing gripping ;-) He didn't even ask me what I did or what my hobbies are :-s He's coming down to Melbourne next month though, and wants to meet up then...I didn't say anything about that though when I replied. I figure he should tell me more about himself and paint me a better picture before I commit to anything! Alright, gotta go work now, but will update as and when the story unfolds... Current Mood:  pensive | | Tuesday, September 12th, 2006 | | 2:11 am |
| | 1:14 am |
Hugs & Vibes
Kat - I miss you too! It would be totally awesome if we were back together again, because yes, it is meant to be. But not right now. Not for me to move over there. I'll be back there for a holiday next year. I know it's not the same, but shit happens :-( You can't come here - you've got stuff tying you there right now. And same with me. But sometime soon (I can feel it) we will be in the same city again - maybe even living together! I was just thinking about how funny it is that we're really bad at actually saying these things to each other. We always have been...hence the letter writing, and now saying it through emails/LJ posts! But you know I love you lots + lots and am always just a phone call away (or a flight)! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo Current Mood: nostalgic | | Monday, September 11th, 2006 | | 5:29 pm |
Houses...
So, my dad got back from London yesterday. You can imagine my horror as I hear that since returning, he has decided to no longer buy a house in Melbourne...I've only been looking for a place for the last four months! The frustration kicked in, and I thought that the last 4 months had been a colussal waste of time. But WELL DONE my dad. He just didn't want to have to rush to buy a place. Fair enough. It is a lot of money after all. So, I took him to see a place I really liked, today, and yes. He's happy. I'm happy. The only question now is: will we be successful at the auction? I hope so. If all goes well and we get it, I/we could have a new house this time in 2 weeks...! I'm excited, but know I shouldn't get my hopes up. Auctions = disappointment. Fingers crossed though! Current Mood: relaxed | | Thursday, August 24th, 2006 | | 12:17 pm |
Kat - Kenya/Africa question...
A friend of mine is going to Africa on Sunday to do loads of Safaris (damn him!), and thought maybe we (you) could give him some info... He's going to Nairobi, the Mara, Jo'berg and Londolozi... He's booked with a Private Safari company called Grant & Cameron Safaris, so he'll be camping at private camps on safari. But just thought there may be some useful info we could craig david him on! We have to have chats after this weekend....or maybe on sunday? Lemme know when you're going to be around xx | | Wednesday, July 19th, 2006 | | 8:43 pm |
Annoyances
So, I know this is going to sound fickle, but this is exactly the kind of situation that I hate, that I find myself in now: A couple of friends of mine have just been shitting me up the wall. Nick (have mentioned him before I think), just made me break today. He's SO rude and sarcastic to me, like ALL the time, and today, when I had some information he wanted to know, he was just so nice! So I cracked it. I went on strike and refused to tell him because he's only nice to me when he wants something. I just cannont tolerate it any more. So i told him, but he was like "I only mean it in the most endearing way!" I think I've just grown out of those types of friendships though. It's a shame though, because we get along really well... Second one is my housemate. We get along SO well, apart from the fact that she's a little bit self-righteous. She ALWAYS thinks she's right. And she can't take criticism. It makes it really hard to discuss any types of issues that arise. I think it's always hard, because when I used to live with Kat (Kittenista), when we had any issues with each other we wouldn't talk, we would write to each other. And it's amazing how well that would work and sort everything out between us. I miss that kind of ease in a friendship, that you know whatever the problem, you're going to talk about it and not risk the friendship. Those kind of things, combined with my friends' fiance hitting on me, make me feel like just taking off! It's so much easier with people you don't have to explain yourself to. People who just get you. Without having to explain WHY you're being quiet or in a bad mood. How much easier, nicer, would life be if you were just surrounded by those types of people - the people who don't make life an effort? Current Mood:  annoyed | | Friday, March 31st, 2006 | | 8:39 am |
Woken up by a 'Nudge'!! ;-)
Alright, so it's my last day at my first job...PHEW! As much as I'm looking forward to a new place and more challenges, it is actually kind of sad to go.... It has, after all, been my first job, and a lot of the people here have become really good friends. I'll definitely miss them more than the job! Especially as I'm going to be too far away at my new place to meet up with them for lunch :-( They gave me my leaving present the other day, and it was a good concept, but didn't work in practice. A bag and matching wallet/purse. The problem was, the bag had this patchwork type thing in the middle of it...i'm not really a patchwork kinda girl! so, although it may be shallow, I went and exchanged it without telling them. I figure it's such a waste to keep it when i'm never going to use it(!) So instead I got this really funky bag and necklace - woop woop! Okay, I'm going to go pretend to do some work now ;-) | | Thursday, March 23rd, 2006 | | 11:46 am |
Finally!!
Kat - I got the job with Aviva! I finish up at my current place next Friday (Phew!), and then have a week off before I start my new job. I'm SOO relieved, I can't even tell you! Although, it's a bit sad to be leaving some people: charisse, fi, nick, crommie.... Oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do! | | Thursday, March 9th, 2006 | | 8:41 am |
Charisse, Fiona, Michelle, Katinda...
Job hunting while you're still working is a nightmare! Let's take Charisse (CGA) as our first example. She's been on the look out and going on interviews for the past 8 months at least! CGA is the one person who I feel the most sorry for - she has to deal with our general manager (the biggest joke) on a day to day basis as she reports directly to her...the crap she has to deal with is unbelievable. And she's such a good person - literally, one of the most decent people I know. The jobs she really wants, she doesn't get, and the ones she's not interested in, want her - go figure! CGA and I both got interviews with the same company, and it turned out that when I had my first interview with them, they had asked her to come in for a 2nd interview at the same time that I was going in - meant to be, or so we thought! We both really liked it, two of the people she interviewed with, she used to work with. Place seemed really good, people nice - it would have been too perfect! Then yesterday I get the call - they want to see me again. I was really happy - it's a company I can TOTALLY see myself working for. My good news was tainted though. Later in the evening, CGA got the call as well. She didn't get the job. How sucky is that?!? I still really want it, but I really want CGA to be given a break...She deserves one so much. Anyway, then we've got Michelle, who has resigned, and leaves next Thursday. Sometimes, you just can't win. There was a period her and I weren't talking. So we were pulled in because people were 'concerned' (we were pretty tight before). Now it's fine - we're back to normal. After Michelle handed in her resignation though, Aarti (our annoying general manager) was speaking to Charisse, and asked her "Now that Michelle's leaving, do you think Anushka is thinking about it too? They are very close..." For the love of god - do they have issues when we don't speak, suspicions when we do...what do they want from us?!? Poor Fi...she's the one who hates this place the most, but isn't getting many interviews at this stage. They will have a mass exodus on their hands fairly soon! And Katinda - why they think they're so important they can reschedule at the last minute, I don't know. Clearly, when you get the job, you have to point out to them exactly who you are, and how you won't stand to be treated in that manner in the future! ;-) Good luck my sweet! | | Wednesday, March 1st, 2006 | | 8:37 am |
Boredom
So I still haven't heard back from the place I interviewed with last week... My motivation at work is hitting rock bottom - Alicia left yesterday :-( and Nick is down to working 1 day a week! It's all getting pretty rubbish. I do, however, have another interview at lunchtime. More excitingly, Charisse (a colleague and good friend) and I are interviewing at the same company next week! It would just be SO cool if we both got jobs there - the best people in our company together again ;-) Kat - did you hear back from your analyst interview? What's the go with that? I just found this quote: "Have no friends not equal to yourself." | | Monday, February 27th, 2006 | | 8:14 am |
Monday woes...
It's Monday morning, and I can't believe the weekend is gone already! It just seems so wrong...whoever came up with the concept of a 5 day working week, with only 2 days to recover was a complete moron! Where the hell is the logic in it? By the time you get to Friday, you need Saturday to recover from the Monday-Friday just gone, then Sunday is getting ready for Monday. If you can find the relaxing days in there - please tell me!! Getting back to Luke and his wankerness... ...I've calmed down since the original shock and disgust of Friday night. I have decided that when, on Wednesday, I am allowed to spread this news, I am going to do it in such a way that he's not going to know what's hit him! |
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